Goku zai,...Man Zai...now back on track!!

Finally that stupid feelings went off liao...wakakakaa
Hmmmnn... well its been awhile now got the fighting SPIRIT BACK ON TRACK d...
OK...start to plan for my Finance for next year later...(around 6pm like that)
Tonight will plan everything for next year liao..
CANT WAIT for the time to pass
Actually miss all the time when i am wif my friends and so on...
Last night...a long lost friend sudd phone me...
lolx she asked me go to a place(wah...to me like sumhow Heaven) coz all leng lui...
lolx its a new place just open not long ago by her cousin's family

The environment is nice..sooner or later will make sure i bring my friends there...

Hehe....so energetic now...

New year New life New...experience...lolx

K lar stop here beta get starting d...

Lonely~~~ Lonely Night~~~

Walao..today hor i tell you all..
I DAMN SIEN!!!!!!! stuck at home....
Then then....whole family go Funaral...
I SO damn lonely...
Bought a new phone tomorrow going to get it...

My day for tomorrow should be a great day..

Getting my New phone S.E C902

Getting back my car...PROTON...which went to garage

Going to nowhere...coz no program tomorrow damn sien...

Tonight so lonely tomorrow try to do sumthing lor..

Maybe go exercise...work out

Abo i so fat..walao...=.=

alot ppl dono how to quote me..

When infront of me..

Wana quote me FEI ZAI(scare hurt my feelin)

Quote me BIG eh...also paiseh..

haihz i so zialat i beta cut off my meats and petrol in my body liao lor....

Back to my topic..

Cant wait for tomorrow...

Although morning need to go funeral...

But should be a great day right?

Felt so sad when i heard my great aunt pass away..

But then...who will live forever?

I felt that living in this world...somehow..

Its a test for us before we go..(go as in die la)

so...i will do my BEST from now...

Waiting for the day to come

(the day i meet another girl who can steal my heart)...

Merry Christmas to all my friends and family...

†Man Zai†

A great day...turn out not what i aspected...lolx

Early morning woke up then go church d lor...
After church go lunch then got home...
Relax awhile watching anime and chattin wif regina..
Then suddenly..lolx something regina sent me too attractive liao
LOL...then i went search for more...
But end up like that lor..

Today tot that the party is nice or what eh..

Mana tao...walao all auntie uncle nia...wt...zzzz

nvm lor...leave that place sommore so late....

Really kena BIG 1 from my mom...zzzz

but nvm la after all i reach home in one piece liao..

Hmmm tomorrow going to pass something to sum1..

Then got to take my car go fix da door and so on liao..

Hope wont cost too much...hehe

Well i beta go rest now tata...

What a day...

Early morning woke up so late..missed the badminton...
afternoon went lunch
then settled some issue then after that
I went to the singing again..

Singing really is what i like the most i think

But then...

I finally got the courage to tell what and how i felt

To the person I once loved the most..

Hmm actually was thinking that...

We can still be together..

(that was last month)

But then after da insident...

And the way how she treated me..

I started to think and consider what all my friends and family

have been tellin me..

Although really its hard at 1st for me..

And I still hope she cared for me..

But she wont la...

I know her heart got another person d..

Well wishing for her will never be enough i guess...

Hmm..

But then mun arh...loving you was not a mistake...

Its fate that bring us together...

Just decision was made by us... not by fate..

I got to admit here...I loved her till that day...

she started treating me like that

I cant blame her for that also

Coz i really changed..

She felt so fake when she's with me..

I must understand that..

but thanks to her also i realise how fake i was..

I was totally not myself...

Then i realise...that time

I was not in love...

But obsess...lolx

hmmm

Well now that I have expressed my feelings..

And i know she wont tell anything to me even if she wants or have...

Because she will think that she might hurt me again or maybe hurt herself...

I hope she'd told me...atleast i can have a know...

Ok then back to square 1...Single and available..

My life now...is to work and enjoy what i am doing..

And mun arh...

I wish that you can somehow...

be with the person that you love now..

Hmm make sure both of you are happy owh...

K lar..if can keep in touch if u dont want I wont force eh...

Tomorrow is Sunday d...

Got tons of things to do...

Night time got event...dont know want to go or not also...lolx

This xmas i think i will be going trough a lonely night bah...alone...

Hope that good things will happen this year...(i mean xmas)

Wish ALL the best

for all my friends, family and loved one's and

also those that i loved b4..

Merry Christmas..

†Man Zai†

What a day...but i enjoyed it instead of complaining it...lolx

Today so suay...morning go cut hair...(hair dresser not there SEAN)
then after that go find my friend after leaving Prangin(Kena Saman sommore white LEG eh)
RM 300 fly....T.T
Wat the...nvm lor..
Working that time so tired...TERTIDUR sommore
Luckly awhile nia
I keep on slap myself...

At night we went calorine with the Gang..lolx

Such a fun thing to do...

I love calorin but the santa i cant make it

COz of what?

Coz of my time that i set accordingly to MR Bernard gave me..

He said Wednesday...so i arrange all my things at tuesday...

Then suddenly he say tuesday...

I told him straight away i cant...

He insist on wanting me can..

I said to him SIR i try k?latest what time i can go?

He said? TWO PM...u can cabut d..

then i ma tell him sir...tomorrow Rehersal only righT? ok then i try make it on 2

After all my adjustment made...i made it on 1pm

Now he so angry about me...

He tot i ditch him...

Sir i hope u understand..

I liked to be santa actually but i really cant make it...

Next semester i going to see him...

hope he wont be so angry...

Calorin this thing..is just havin fun

I dint join any CLUB because they asked...

I join because i want to find things to do...

I want to stop thinking of things that i dont want..

I want to relax and have fun..

Mr B... if u read this u will understand more...

†Man Zai†

Da day when i bcame a SLAVE for Miss Cheryl

A Crime that Pinky(JunJong) Made: Poking the property of Miss Cheryl

When he(Pinky) was Jailed due to the crime he did...


Pinky, Jessie and Sheuely working on the things that we SLAVES have to move

Pinky, me Sheuely and Jessie working hard as a Slave..

Working like a COW...Miss Cheryl..this is how hard we work as A SLAVE...lolx...

Wow today so lame woke up that morning was so energetic and doing stuff

But then...something happened in between

Luckly da conflic have pass d...

Conflict wif my granny...

Actually was my mistake,

coz i told a lie...

I lied to my granny that day..

And at night time i went to tell her i lied to her...(through the phone)

Actually is my mom who phoned me that night...

then end up she open loud speaker...

then sommore my granny next to her...=.=

i confess the lie i told to my mom...

Then..ma die lor..

Da cold war started and ended for 1 week...

I was so stressed out thanks to that...lolx

But then back to topic of being slave...

Miss Cheryl was soo CRUEL...

I got picture as PROOF...

We worked totally like a Slave from Point A moving her stuff to to Point B.

But it is all worth it...

Atleast thanks to that i got a distink on her paper..lolx

OKOK crap less Torture pictures comming up now...

†Man Zai†

Being myself seems to be so nice...hehe

Now days being myself but still dont know why i can force myself to move more then i can...
Maybe i wanted too much d...
Should i step slower abit?
Past few days i kept on work and study...
really 100% pure work and study mode
Now i got backache d...
My gastric also got worsen d..
Eat too much gastric med now BROKE liao...lolx
haha i really treat it like sweet when it pains

But ok la after eat afew then no pain le..atleast ..phew~~

Wroth the money to Pay for...

Hmm Exams...now to me like nothing...

If got study then what for scare..

Study more now...

Working really sux but still got to work if not no money like now ler...

Later maybe i got to go find kang tao again..

Broke life suckx...

But got too much money that time?

Later say become rich bastard that time?

Will i say Rich time suckx?

LOLX its just things that we dint know..

Maybe we will...or should i say

Maybe i might...

In the past i say i dont want single life..

But now i am enjoying single life...

In future maybe when i want a gf?

But i also not sure now dont know weather i want to go for it

Or just stay like this...

Lolx... blur case huh...

nvm liao la just study 1st la..

When it comes...sure will be fine...

Make sure i wont go get over obsess of girls..

If not i will just lose myself...

Like When i love mun...

At 1st really love slowly bcome obsess..

LOL thats not love anymore...its OBSESS..

i dont want that to happen again..

I sux huh? maybe i just need time to understand and make my mind clear..

K then i going to Tate's place now...STUDY!!! PIA TILL THE END...

Thanks tatt...without u i think i might lost myself long long time ago...

LOL

Thanks all my friends, Kenny, Regina, Tian, Rayz, Timi and TONS of them more.... thanks

Family will always come 1st...

Friends comes second...

Lovers comes 3rd...

LOL

I say here now but when i got gf time the thing sure change 1..lolx

K lar...at here My Xmas Wish is that...

All the girls that I loved the most b4...

Please stay as happy as possible...

Please Enjoy ur life...

Must find da right person owh although i know its not me...

LoL...

And for all my friends around me...

If need help find me...

If got info share wif me...

If got Kang Tao..share wif me also la..lolx

Merry Christmas Guyz and Gurlz.....

ANd a Happy New Years...

†Man Zai†

Took me quite awhile, Now must get back on TRACK d...

Lew Kit Mun, a girl once i loved so much that i cant let go, finally i let go d...
hmmm took me quite awhile..

After all this things including friends,

now although got issues

but still this should be the things that i have to understand learn and grow right?

Well having a feeling for another person does not means that for sure the person likes u coz...

it might be a feelings one side only.

And loving a person does not means that we must be wif them together...

Mun now got new person in her heart d...

I got mine too...

But why we both still single?

lolx i dont think she will be single for long.

But i think i will...for another few months? years?

Who knows..

Better enjoy my life now...if not later got gf time only regret arh...lolx

Now i know why i appreciated love so much....

I also understand why i so scare and what i am scared of loving another person after the breaking....

Loving does not only have the sweet sweet things its not a dream or wanderland, in this world as a fact, love hurts more then anything but at the same time we appreciate it and we grow on it.

The previous love i lost its because i lost myself...

thats why i lost my love.

We must be who we are...

What for we change for the sake of other people?

Why cant we just be the way we are??

I mean for me ofcourse....lolx..

From today onwards i will have to change back d..

Regina thanks ya? for that day's phrase

Made me realise what i have lost for long time ago...hehe

Thanks to all my friends that cared for me....

Hmmm i was tired in the past now no more..

I know that i got so many friends that cared for me...

So i beta look after my own actions and start to care for myself liao lor.

Must not try too hard on everything, coz u just need to try ur best thats enough

Dont over do it, like i did all the time

Its time i try things more easily not too hard..

Not to force myself too much also...

But now need to force myself for FA2 exams on tuesday

Tate, Lets Fight Till The End of THE(exam)

lolx...

K lar will FIGHT for my exam on tuesday...

TOnight i fight for the knowledge that i left behind...

Those girls that i had loved b4...

please stay happly everyday,

make sure u remember to smile k?

Those friends that cared for me all the while...

thank you guyzz very much...

and also do remember to smile everyday k?

Those friends who got issue or problems

i will be here for u,

As an (smiling gas machine or a wall for u to scream at)

just let me know k?

Home issue sattled,
friendship issue understand and working on it,
love issue stop thinking about it d...
so now study issue FIGHTING FOR IT now...

†Man Zai†