What a day...

Early morning woke up so late..missed the badminton...
afternoon went lunch
then settled some issue then after that
I went to the singing again..

Singing really is what i like the most i think

But then...

I finally got the courage to tell what and how i felt

To the person I once loved the most..

Hmm actually was thinking that...

We can still be together..

(that was last month)

But then after da insident...

And the way how she treated me..

I started to think and consider what all my friends and family

have been tellin me..

Although really its hard at 1st for me..

And I still hope she cared for me..

But she wont la...

I know her heart got another person d..

Well wishing for her will never be enough i guess...

Hmm..

But then mun arh...loving you was not a mistake...

Its fate that bring us together...

Just decision was made by us... not by fate..

I got to admit here...I loved her till that day...

she started treating me like that

I cant blame her for that also

Coz i really changed..

She felt so fake when she's with me..

I must understand that..

but thanks to her also i realise how fake i was..

I was totally not myself...

Then i realise...that time

I was not in love...

But obsess...lolx

hmmm

Well now that I have expressed my feelings..

And i know she wont tell anything to me even if she wants or have...

Because she will think that she might hurt me again or maybe hurt herself...

I hope she'd told me...atleast i can have a know...

Ok then back to square 1...Single and available..

My life now...is to work and enjoy what i am doing..

And mun arh...

I wish that you can somehow...

be with the person that you love now..

Hmm make sure both of you are happy owh...

K lar..if can keep in touch if u dont want I wont force eh...

Tomorrow is Sunday d...

Got tons of things to do...

Night time got event...dont know want to go or not also...lolx

This xmas i think i will be going trough a lonely night bah...alone...

Hope that good things will happen this year...(i mean xmas)

Wish ALL the best

for all my friends, family and loved one's and

also those that i loved b4..

Merry Christmas..

†Man Zai†