180Degree Change in My Life..

Its been awhile since i've been blogging again, i'm back..^.^

Well this time i got this to share with you all... A thing that changed my life 180 Degree..


Cool Right? Well I Didn't expect it to be this way either..

It all start when i went to Langkawi... I took alcohol like drinking water..

Its been awhile since i've enjoyed so much Alcohol but.. It was a beginning of a Nightmare to me..

After a week the effect start to take place... My liver and Gall Bladder went outbound but i dint realize.. i still thought it was gastric, so.. took a couple of injection and gastric med It was of no help and i manage to hold it for 1 week before i went into hospital to check it out whats wrong...

After 2 days suffering pain and egony in hospital i found out that my gall bladder was stuck by a stone in it.. and My liver was infected and grew until 16CM long.. which is quite unbelievable..

SHOCKING to found out this but i got alot of antibody and injection to cure it and manage to avoid operation...

Now the best part that change my life is this..

Well On the 5th day after they made alot of test on me.. They found out something which i was SHOCKED to hear from them.. I'm now a Diabetic Patient..

SHOCKING RIGHT?!! lolx I was shocked at 1st.. but from discharge until now its been 2 weeks...
I'm getting use to all the changes.. Starting from Food to Lifestyle to activities.. All have changed..

I told myself NEVER regret on what i do in the past, Endure and Learn From it, Face the facts in the Present, Future will come when it should be there..

Now i really learn how to live healthier, but sadly i cant take all those delicious foods anymore..
Water wize.. i bet Plain water will be with me until the day i pass away..
Its a huge change including now my wieght.. its leaving me .. soo fast.. i cant believe i can have such a nice body shape lately..

Should i THanks god for all this blessings? Continue my Super Duper positive thinking? or should i just ....

Well I've already chose a path, I Thank Dear Lord Jesus, Almighty Father who bless me this. Everything happen for a reason in Life. I know now. Thanks for teaching me this way GOD.

Well what really worries and disturbs my feelings lately is that.. I don't know weather i'm still qualify to date a girl whom i love (1 sided) since I last broke up(2yrs and 3 month ago).. Her name is Carmen,Y.
(Cant put her full name later she know..)

Well frankly to say i was never being able to let her go since... (should be 4 years ago already..) when we 1st Met in a class in SEGi..

But now thinking back, she had such a strong family and soo many admirer looking forward to date her.. and she's now living her life in KL(Kuala Lumpur). I'm now in Penang...

So.. i was going to date her out during her holiday in Penang u know? (oMG i feel like talking to a Blog while i write this) .. but then now.. think of it. i'm afraid that she'll tell me not to... like she use to tell me back then(she would not want to have Boyfriend but when she wants she'll go look for it)
That's when i told her (When you want to look for Boyfriend, Please put me on the list)

Hahax stupid me. now i do wish she'd take me OFF the list... I'm no longer in a healthy condition to be with her anymore.. i might make her worry MORE(like when i went into hospital.. she WORRIED) i was like OMG why did i make her worry...

She might still not know that i have Diabetic.. so i'm so confused lately. I really do hope some1 can consult me.. give me advise on what i really should do.....

Lately i've been working real hard despite all the pain that my body have been causing me..
I want to forget about Love.. I loved a person for soo long.. am i stupid?......

I dont know now..

Thanks to blogging i can like type out what that is corrupting in my mind.. But then I hope this will not make me regret, I'll continue my work.. Date her as plan.. But i might not express myself to her.. i'm afraid she might get into a hard position where she'd afraid to lose a friend (if she say no) and if she loves me then everything will go well but we are separated from KL to Penang.. that might cause a problem for her.. i guess its not a good time to do that.. So...

Its Decided then.. (well frankly to say she might not even agree to come out with me on a date) so..
Lets not put so high hope since she's busy on her studies.. let her be.. She'll be fine cause i Believe in her....

Well Lets talk back to my life now.. 180degree change..
I have to work out every morning.. work at noon and night.. so i'll be healthy i hope..
Its time to bed now it took me 30 minutes just to put out all my crap that's in my head...

PS: Dear God, Please don't Let Carmen.Y Found out about this Blog page, and pray hard for her not to stress herself too much, She can make it through her test. I believe in it she will..^.^
Bless her to be healthy too..^.^

Amen.
Nights all and thanks for those who's been viewing my blog..^.^ Please continue support me.. Advise me if can i'm now still struggling.. did i make the right choice?.. i'm still confused but i'll go with what i got if no other option came out which is better.. Nightzz. Sweet dreams..